new commitment, new you?

“Don’t ever give up

Dont ever give in

Dont ever stop trying

Dont ever sell out

And if you find yourself succumbing to one of the above for a brief moment,

Pick yourself up, brush yourself off, and start where you left off

But never, ever, ever give up.”

This year has felt like a cyclical season of yes and falling flat on my face. I’ve gone from feeling like I’m invincible, on top of the mountain to feeling like an idiot and don’t know what I’m doing. 

Its been a year of starts and restarts. I haven’t given up but it feels like I’m consistently tripping all over myself. I’ve made some big decisions this year.. I’ll save you the drama-filled details but each one gets a little scarier. At the time the leap is exhilarating. Of course, after the leap is the fall and while you’re falling you’re thinking okay now what… I'm either going to hit the ground or figure out how to fly. Sometimes its not so linear. Just when I feel like I get a handle on flying, my wings get clipped or I convince myself I'm not a bird. Maybe I’m getting little too imaginary here. Let me bring it back down to earth.

So, you make a big decision to change your life, maybe you quit your job to launch your own company. Or, you hire a fitness coach for the 5th year in a row because THIS is the year you are ready to finally lose weight. As if the leap of faith to make the investment wasn’t hard enough, now you have to keep making hard choices— EVERY DAMN DAY! Are you kidding me?! “I thought I signed up with this coach so that I could just coast through and they would make me lose 20 lbs” WRONG. OH my dear are you wrong. When you make a commitment to yourself you don’t get to bypass all your self-judgment or obstacles. This is a process that requires a commitment to empower yourself and lead you to your truth. 

I made a commitment to hire two business coaches. And as shameful as I feel saying this, I feel those words deep in my core. “SO I hired these coaches, why aren’t I making 6 figures already” FUCKING HA. HA. HA. HA. 

Let me be real honest with you. The leap is the easy part. Investing in yourself is the easy part. It is the flood gate to all the hard shit ahead. I am not a fan of the whole wait till January 1 to set goals, this is my year blah blah bullshit. BUT, it is a fresh start. The holidays are over. Theres no more traveling; there’s no more family to entertain… So, it IS the perfect opportunity to begin. I’m a creature of organization. I am that person that prefers to start on Sunday (Sunday is my Monday). In fact, I am writing this blog on Sunday December 30 because I am getting a head start on everything I want to commit to this year. 

So, in short. No matter how many times in 2018 or in your lifetime that you’ve started only to smack your face on the ground, get back up sis and lets do it again. You know your highest potential is within reach. And if you don’t know that, this is me telling you it is. This is your permission slip to go out there and fucking take what you want— because you have all the power in the world to do so. 

So, this year, right now, I challenge you to commit to you: the higher you that has immense power. The one who’s words, thoughts and actions can either foster judgment and self abuse OR self acceptance and authentic becoming! You are the one you have been waiting for. You can either step towards change or fight, resist and ignore it. Transformation is a conscious choice. When you step into your power you accept change and onto the path of transformation to move from being victim of life to being the co-creator of your story. Every time you are faced with a new obstacle you are asked to re-commit over and over to the process and your truth. Each time you decide to re-commit, something changes inside you. Your commitment and your truth gets a little bit stronger. You become a little more disciplined and a little bit bigger.

So I ask, what YOU are you committing to this year? Who do you want to be? What does the life that you crave look like?